It's awful. And wonderful. And then awful again.
Whenever people ask me how the wedding planning is going, my immediate response is that it's going well. It's really pretty much done. Maybe this is just because I'm constantly comparing it to my previous activities in pharmacy school. So here it is, wedding planning is easier than being a pharmacy student. Don't get me wrong, I've had a lot of help along the way, and an AMAZING fiancé, so maybe that's why it seems to be so much easier. Also, it's more FUN. What would I rather be doing right now; studying for pharmacotherapy like I should be (instead of writing this blog post) or making more fabric flowers, painting votives, pouring wax into the stemmed votives that we found for 50 cents a piece back at home? Of course all of the latter activities make me happier.
This is probably why: I like things that get done. It sounds silly, but it's true! I love crossing things off a to-do list, completing assignments, finishing cleaning my room, getting that next load of laundry out of the dryer, and finishing a bunch of dishes. There's a sense of finality to it. In all of this planning/creating, there's a sense of finality. I have missed it so much. There is no sense of finality in pharmacy school. Like I said, we have a pharmacotherapy exam tomorrow, and for the life of me I will NEVER have a sense that I have finished preparing for this exam. I can't. There's too much for my tiny brain to handle. A roommate of mine told me first year: "Larren, there is always more to know." He's right. I don't like that.
Planning this wedding, however, has been a series of tasks that I've been able to do. To do: book a venue, hire a photographer, dj, baker, etc. Each of those are all taken care of. Once it's done, it's done! There's no more studying/researching to be done. And it's awesome!
What does this come down to? I'm a control fruit loop and I don't like things that are out of my control: i.e.: pharmacy school. Don't like it a bit. Maybe things will be better on rotations when I will have a series of finalities each day. For now, back to attempting to study for this crazy exam tomorrow. Story. Of. Our. Lives.
